trips

nathaniel is off on a new adventure to alaska, it was weird hugging him, he seemed just as awkward about it, the job hunt is as bland as ever. i find myself comparing my life with my friends and they go off and do what they want, they have never compromised or given anything a second thought, all i do is second guess everything i do, i have a job interview today for some negative ion kiosk at the mall, sounds boring but i'd rather not be unemployed anymore, i hope i get the job. i get the feeling that any chance i've had to just drop everything and go out on an amazing adventure has been out the window for awhile, maybe i should plan something though. i think i'll just stick to blank verse poetry though, but i'm still up in the air, about everything.

where are we going?

man

i wish people cared.



where are we going?

things, and then some

where are we going?

so I haven't been posting at all these days, and there's way too much stuff that has happened that was funny, terrible, gripping, and maybe awe-inspiring that i can write it all down. so I we'll all just have to take the readers digest version:

got a job at pizza hut
got an apt. in hanahan, right next to nathaniel you can check out his blog, "Time To Get Along" here: http://timetogetalong.blogspot.com/
jenifer got a job at a jewlery repair store
my job hassled me into working hours that I couldn't
I quit my job
started hanging out with these college kids in my neighborhood


so, now I'm pretty much just sitting around the house looking for things to gripe about.

so there, my 4 followers, all people i know, are pretty much filled in.

see ya.

totally fucked.

so i've been doing alot of thinking. and i guess everyone does during college, when they're not drinking and being pretentious assholes. and things arent making sense. like, the big bang theory. i don't believe in god, but that theory can't be true. theres gotta be a better explaination. like, the possibility of a higher power? not nessicarily(sp?) christian god or allah or something but the whole, massive explosion thing, that shit is for the birds. i think the main reason atheist hold onto that so strongly is, not only because theres no alternitive besides creation, but because most people hate being proven wrong. anyway, whether there is a god or not, something else had to of happened. i was out riding the other night with my friend joey, and we stopped for a little while got into a discussion on philosiphy. joey is a existentialist, like kerouac or emerson, i assume kerouac was an existentalist anyway, thats just my take on his work, anyway, i decided to hold Nietzsche's mantle of nihilism, and joey, who at the time had been looking into alot of buddhism, told me "you are like a drop of water in a fountain, as soon as you drop your ego, and your vices and realize that, for instance, lets say, when the drop (you) are shot up, that is your life, but as soon as you return to the pool, that is death, as soon as you realize that your the same in the air (alive) as you are when you return to the pool (death) your exactly the same." and that also got me thinking. so i'll check back in when i'm done.


where are we going?

bikes!

hey everybody (aka the 2 people who are following me on here...), just catching up on some things, like... i took my peugeot to the shop for a new derailuer, and also, i got a we the people bmx bike, recently decided to branch off into freestyle riding, i still love my road bike but the new one is alot more fun. also i changed my major again, this time to Radio/Television Broadcasting, which alot better than my last lame ass major. also my band coup d'etat has broken up due to inactivity and school, but i have some solo stuff is in the works, www.myspace.com/yesofficerpunk hopefully someting awesome will come to that. like i said though, still in the works. alright see you guys later.

where are we going?

changes

where are we going?


change is supposedly natural. but what inspires change? i guess time does, and physical stimuli. but is there also a deep-rooted urge to become different every-so-often? it seems like that for some, but not for others. some people embrace change, I, like to think I do, but I'm not so sure if I do or not. strange things have happened to me and my friends, I suppose Walter put it best when he said it was "moving forward" (and now that smug fuck is apparently taking a step back). but I've been questioning where exactly forward is. it's definetly not in charleston, or any of the surrounding townships or cities; it's just really really hard to believe that i can just get on a road and it'll take me across country.I think that's what summerville is hoping on. it's youth forgetting that it can leave.

hmmm

where are we going?



Fuck school, Fuck god, Fuck life. really, I don't see any point in signing up this semester. I don't see any point in writing anymore tonight.